Inside Looking Out
The Return
October 2024
It is strange to come back and add to this blog. When I started it in 2017, I believed I would be able to share our physical and mental aging process.
How wrong I was. The stresses piled up and became so heavy that I could no longer share this with anyone. I could not find the time, and my mind was not free to think or focus on putting words to paper. I also began to doubt myself; I failed my husband when he needed me.
We were 82 years old, and our bodies were losing elasticity. Ideas for the blog raced about in my mind, but they became mingled with thoughts of how to brighten Gordon’s day as his depression darkened his days.
His golfing friend became ill, and Gordon’s medical problems took over his life. A day out seemed always to entail a doctor’s visit. On top of this, his PTSD symptoms ran side by side with his pain to deepen his depression.
